Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Psychiatry is NOT consent

I do not consent to psychiatric manipulation or brainwashing that would have fucked me up in ways that I didn't go out on a date with Liz.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Mental Health test indicates that shrink was trying to prevent me from going out with Liz.

   After watching thousands of spy shows from the 60s like The Man from UNCLE, the Girl from Uncle, The Avengers, Get Smart!, etc, as well as recent ones like Alias, my obsession with spy films stems from being a martial artist with a study of self-defense, that martial arts isn't just enough to defend oneself, espionage is necessary.

   Finally, after watching a spy film, I realized it. As I do know there is a Neo-Nazi group in Tulsa, The Roman Liberation Front, KKK, etc, I realized that a Neo-Nazi group was using psychiatry as a front and cover for their mental attacks on minorities. Already I had determined that the side-effects of psychiatric medicine is responsible enough for my "not going out witih Liz" but there is even more.

  I remember, in the mental health ward, they gave me a test, and did not give me reasons for the test. They handed me a pile of pictures, of men and women. They told me to say "yes" or "no". So as I went through the pile of pictures, I said yes and no randomly, with no thought of attraction or anything of the sort. I simply picked this out at random. This test was for them to determine if they could get me to say "no" to girls and 'yes' to men. This is exactly the test to determine if they are successful at getting me to 'say' no  to 'Going out on a date with Liz". This is exactly what they were trying to do. They brainwashed me and used unknown pharmaceuticals on me. This test that I experienced, indicates precisely that they were trying to 'loveblock' me and 'romanceblock' me. That they were deliberately trying to sabotage my relationships. Already it is determined that psychiatric prescriptions cause lack of relationships, but this test shows that they were doing it on purpose.

  So, what is to be done? The damage is done. I cannot go back in time and go out on a date with Liz. She will not forgive me. Girls do not forgive these things. I do not know how to heal and to find love in my life before it is over. Time has passed so long. It has been 23 years since Liz wanted to go out on a date with me and I said no. I have been self-sabotaging myself and destroying myself since I took the prescription psychiatric pills, and now I have been trying to heal myself and redeem myself and take back what was 'sabotaged' from me, 17 years since I have taken the pills and it has been a war. A cold war and a battle.

Friday, August 26, 2016


I was watching "Night Train to Munich" a comedy about a superspy whose cover as a singer-salesman selling song books on the street and singing them, goes on a mission to rescue a girl and her scientist father from the evil clutches of the Gestapo.
I was so happy and joyful watching this, and laughing.

I watched Danger 5 and it's about a Superspy Squadron versus Hitler. Its the most hilarious shit ever. I was so happy and joyful watching this. 
I realized, that watching films vs Nazis  make me happy. And Naziexploitation.
Why? Because Liz, a cute girl who wanted to go out with me, was my secretary in this "Holocaust" class so I got to spend some time with her in this class. Sadly, because of Neo-Nazi Prescription pills of Prozac it made me not feel my 'love chemicals' and did the opposite, like the "Ludovico Technique" from A Clockwork Orange,  that it made me "Not Go out with Liz" when she asked my friend Aaron if I could take her out on a date. She was too shy to ask me myself. The prozac made me think erratically, and made me think "Oh since she couldn't ask me herself then I wont go out with her". But the fallacity in all this is that psychiatric prescriptions have strange sexual side-effects that make you think strangely and act strangely that prevents you from dating and having relationships. 
So, years later after that incident, Liz was in my "Holocaust History Class" and I asked if she could be my secretary and I paid for her to do it. Ever liberal arts class I have a secretary to take notes since I cant hear jack shit. So, even though I still didn't "date" Liz, and she didn't "study with me" when I asked, we were in the same class. And so how strange and rare it is for a hearing girl to want to be my girlfriend. Most hearing girls in Tulsa, if not all of them, are like "Joy Division Girls" for the Hearing Nazi Tulsa Okie Boys. I never knew Liz. I dont know what music she likes, or what food she likes, or anything about her at all. Even though she was my notetaker and in the same class, it seems our conversation didn't go into details (as far as I can remember). 
Strangely, I always feel happy watching a Nazi or Holocaust film. Its perhaps it reminds me of the time I was in a class with a Hearing Girl who once wanted to go out with a date with me. I have never met a girl like her before. Maybe we were meant to be together. Maybe God wanted me to be with Liz so she can keep me away from my shitty crap friends and keep me to be myself. Maybe if Liz was my girlfriend Id be doing my marital arts. Maybe shed tell me not to take that shitty prozac and ritalin. 
In any case, I dont expect to be back with Liz. its been 23 years since she asked my friend if she could go on a date with me. Girls are unforgiving and so I needed her back then. Ive never found Love or another "Liz". Im damaged by the psyschiatric pills. Ive never had a girlfriend.  
Well Ive had a bunch of dates.. not too many. Ive fucked girls I dont like and I didn't like it. So Ive lived an asexual lifestyle of no relationships as an Asexual. Prozac made me Asexual. 
One is Born, to grow up, and Not go out with Liz, Masturbate, and not find Love for decades, and suffer. No one escapes Death. 

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Antidepressants Affect Feelings of Love for Partner



Antidepressants Affect Feelings of Love for Partner


Antidepressants Affect Feelings of Love for Partner

A woman sits, looking depressed
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Taking antidepressants may affect people's feelings of love and attachment, a new study suggests.
Researchers found that men's feelings of love tended to be affected more than women's by taking antidepressants called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs), which work mainly through the serotonin system. In contrast, drugs called tricyclic antidepressants, which affect the serotonin system less, seem to affect women's feelings of love more than men's, the researchers said.
"The good news is that there are a variety of agents for treating depression," said study author Dr. Hagop S. Akiskal, a distinguished professor of psychiatry at the University of California, San Diego.

In the study, researchers compared the effects of SSRIs and tricyclic antidepressants on the love lives of 192 people with depression — 123 women and 69 men — whose mean age was 41. The study included 13 people who were homosexual. All the people in the study said they had been in loving relationships for between seven months and 26 years.
"Indeed, our subjects were those who could be properly considered smitten by love," Akiskal told Live Science. [13 Scientifically Proven Signs You're in Love]
The participants filled out a questionnaire that examined their feelings of love, attachment and sexual attraction to their partners throughout their relationships. On the questionnaire, the participants addressed whether their feelings were different after they started taking antidepressants, compared with before.
When the researchers looked at all the study participants, they found that those taking SSRIs were more likely to say they felt less at ease with sharing their partners' thoughts and feelings, and less wishful that their love for their partner would last forever since they started taking their medication, compared with the people taking tricyclics.
They also found the men in the study taking SSRIs reported being less likely to ask their partners for help or advice, or take care of their partners, compared with women who had been taking SSRIs.
On the other hand, women who had been taking tricyclics were more likely to complain about disturbances in their sex life than men who had been taking tricyclics.
The investigators were inspired to conduct the new study after their previous research with people in romantic relationships and those suffering from obsessive compulsive disorder found that "serotonin function was more deviant in a state of romantic love, than in obsessive compulsive disorder," Akiskal said.
It is important that patients with depression communicate openly with their physicians about how they are feeling, he said.
"Certainly, a physician should always inquire whether there is any impairment in the love life during depressive illness, because the loss of sexual desire and sexual feelings are common manifestations of depressive illness itself," he said.
The study was published in the September issue of the Journal of Affective Disorders.
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Saturday, June 7, 2014


Thank you Liz
for wanting to go out with a deaf retard like me. It must take a lot of courage and strength for a girl to go out with a retarded deaf guy like me. Sure I had youthful good looks, but I had a voice inflection that girls don't like and deafness that girls don't like.

So, I wanted to go out with you too. But, because my psychiatrist wanted to 'cockblock' me and prevent me from gettnig laid, he used the "Ludovico Technique Pill" on me to prevent me from acting out in ways that ges me laid.

It is very, very, very, very, very hard for me to get laid. Ive never had a girlfriend or hve been loved.

Ive been very miserable and almost jumped to my death at Youmacon in Detroit in front of thousands of Cosplayers, because I was so miserable and embarassed that my major was video art instead of anime, and that I wanted to die if I didn't have a cosplaying girlfriend. The thought of not getting laid with a cosplay girl was too much for me to bear that I wanted to jump to my death in front of everyone..

so in order to prevent myself from commiting suicide, I had to leave the con early and not attend the cosplay rave.

it was very sad and I was weeping and crying.

My life sucks.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

20 Real Reasons Men Say No to Sex

(the same thing that can prevent a man from having sex is the same thing that prevents a man from going out on a date or acting in a way that prevents  a woman from showing interest in him, such as giving him peeve side-effects that turn a girl off). 
Sure, many women admit they occasionally come up with excuses to get out of having sex. But there are also often legitimate reasons why they don't want to get it on. And while we're at it, let's clear up an ugly little gender myth here ... Women aren't the only ones saying "no" to sexytimes. Men arejust as guilty of making excuses! And, believe it or not, also have their reasons for abstaining.
Here, 20 actual reasons a guy may say "no" to a bedtime romp ... 
  1. He's suffering from poor body image/feels out of shape.
  2. He ate too much.
  3. He's gassy from eating too much or what he ate. (Having taken milk pills means nothing!)
  4. He had a groin injury and/or surgery recently.
  5. He isn't over a fight you had and doesn't want to hurt you with hate sex.
  6. He's angry about something he has yet to bring up -- and doesn't want to hurt you with hate sex.
  7. He may be in the mood for a less conventional sort of sex play and is not ready to talk to you about that/do that with you. (Also known as Real Life Christian Grey Complex.)
  8. He's suffering from low self-esteem.
  9. He's feeling anxious about money.
  10. He's feeling anxious about work.
  11. He's coping with seasonal depression.
  12. He's coping with chemical depression -- and taking antidepressants only serves to compound the issue, as they notoriously lower sex drive.
  13. He's turned off by something you did -- like lie about money.
  14. He's turned off because you did something that reminds him of your mother ... or his mother. (Ew.)
  15. He already took care of "the need" himself too recently.
  16. His hormone balance is out of whack. (Lower than optimal testosterone or low thyroid, etc.)
  17. He drank too much and is afraid he won't be able to perform up to par.
  18. He's feeling insecure about something related to sex, like penis size, how long he can last before ejaculating, etc.
  19. He's feeling insecure about something else that's linked to his pride/masculinity, like feeling stuck in his career, not making enough money as he'd like, etc.
  20. He's truly, completely zonked/exhausted/burned out/beyond tired. Yes, men are human, too.
What are some other real reasons your man passes on sex?